Plans

Zach and I are two months away from getting married and surprises continue to come our way. We started dating three years ago and from that moment we've been making plans. Plans to go to school together, plans for him to be stationed near me, then plans to learn how to deal with long distance and finally, plans for us to get married and live in Washington D.C. In the last month, Zachary got orders to be stationed in Lankenheath, England for three years. It was our option and we were allowed to turn it down. At first we thought it sounded ridiculous and overwhelming. The week prior we had found a wonderful apartment, I've been shopping for warm clothes for the past year and the PLAN was to live together in D.C. 

We took a deep breath and decided to stop speaking to each other and start talking to God. The conversations on my end consisted of a lot of confusion and worry. On one hand, it sounded like so much fun but on the other, three years seemed like a long time. Zach wasn't getting a clear word from the Lord but my man is NOT a worrier and he is very confident in God's guidance of where we are supposed to be. I had been getting some guidance from people close to me and ultimately I knew that whatever we decided, it had to be a choice we both were confident about.

A couple of days later, Zach calls me while he is walking home from work and i'll never forget what he said, "Haley, I don't want to be in the Air Force anymore and I don't want to be away from family anymore, those things do not sound good to me but Hay I cannot ignore the fact that God has just told me that England is what He wants for OUR family. I think we should go. What do you think?"I was struck into tears at the concept of Zach and I being a family, it was OUR decision because it's OUR family. I wept, just completely humbled by the fact that I was chosen and given the privilege of marrying a man who cares more about obedience to God than his own comfort. In preparing for marriage I've read a lot about submitting to my husband and respecting him as the head of the house, in this moment I realized submitting to Zach is an honor and respecting him comes from the love I have for the person that he is. 

Zach and I are releasing our death grip of control over our own lives. We realize that God's plans are not always what seem like the easiest plans but they are always the best plans. 

"For we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28

-Hay