SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM!
may we never lose our wonder
wide eyed and mystified
may we be just like a child
staring at the beauty of our King.
This is Zizi’s favorite song.
If she is stressed out in her car seat,
I put this song on and it soothes her,
every time.
Its goes on to say,
You are beautiful in all your ways
You are beautiful in all your ways
You fascinate us
You fascinate me
We listen to this almost every time we get in the car
And I realize that my ten week old is teaching me
something.
There are so many circumstances in life that get me
distracted and upset.
Sometimes as a mom, I find myself in this weird,
constant state of worry.
My thought process during the 60 seconds it takes to
change her diaper-
“I wonder if I should ask the doctor
about the little rash on her eye?
Did I switch the clothes from the washer to the dryer?
What am I going to buy Zach for our anniversary?
what the hell am i going to wear?
I hate my body right now,
No you don’t
it produced this sweet angel and
she is so worth these stretch marks
and c section scar
and the extra 15 pounds.
Of course she is!
I’m getting a trainer
I’m going Paleo tomorrow.
I think I should homeschool my kids.”
What you just read is a mixture of attention deficit
disorder
and lack of trust in the Lord.
When I am overwhelmed and thinking about so many
things,
I have to speak those lyrics over myself.
Instead of looking at all the mess
and focusing on the doubt,
stare at the King.
Instead of obsessing negatively over how much my
appearance has changed,
You are beautiful in all your ways
You fascinate me
You are beautiful in ALL your ways.
Just as they soothe Zizi’s screams,
they soothe my soul.
The words we speak over ourselves and others
MATTER.
they matter in the classroom,
they matter as parents,
they matter in the workplace,
they matter in your marriage,
they matter.
I hope to use mine, not to tear down
but to build up.
-hay
